Aug 26, 2006

going down uncharted territory.

i was talking to a friend of mine today. we don't get together too often, but when we do, it's like i just saw her yesterday.

she recently moved to Florida and while talking about the new house, the kids' new school, her husband's new job, and her looking for work, she blurted this out.

"did you ever think that maybe your husband isn't the one you're supposed to be with?"
"it's not that i don't love Nathaniel (obviously, names changed to protect them....i have permission to share this, because it made me think). i do. i love him more than anything. but i keep wondering if this is the life i'm supposed to lead. is this where i'm supposed to be?"

i know most people go through some period of doubt about their lives. if they chose the right job, the right car, hell, even if they chose the right outfit. but doubt about choosing the right mate...

marrying Hubbs, i know, was the right decision for me. do i ever wonder why i did? sure, on occasion. especially when he irritates the living crap out of me. but i'm in this for the long haul. marriage isn't always work, but when it is, i'm up for it. challenges interest me.

sometimes i wonder why it is God decided to not give us children. but that, my friends, is something i will not have the answer to. not in this life, anyway.

this place, this time - is where i'm supposed to be. God never makes a mistake. He never questions His motives. we do, as humans, but that was in the plan.

that's why it's called faith. faith is the belief in things not seen. or known.

and faith tells me i'm right where i'm supposed to be. i will likely question the road as it turns where i wasn't expecting. that's human nature.

but i know Who plotted the course on Mapquest. i'm right where i'm supposed to be.

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