and suddenly, i'm disgruntled all over again.

did i ever tell you about this?

i made this clock for her Christmas gift.

that was in, oh....let's see...December.

Dee-sem-berrrr.

i have not received a note, nor a call nor even a psychic thought sent my way.

now i know she doesn't like me. her husband, however, is one of my best friends. when he saw this, he went nutty. as in "oh my gosh, i can't believe this, this is so amazing - thank you."

but you know, even with all that, you'd think i could at least get a thank you. even if she didn't mean it.

so why do i even try? because he is my friend. and i want to get along with her, as well as him. but apparently no matter what i do, or how well i do it, it's not ever, ever good enough.

i will always be a threat. i will always be viewed as suspect. and it's one of those things i never understood about women. why do we view other women as after our men?

is it a matter of trust? then, why marry them? why spend the time and effort in a relationship if you don't trust them.

i.don't.get.it. and never will.

but no matter what i do, she will never like me. and that bothers me. not because i think i'm all that and everyone should love me.

but at least i'm trying. couldn't she?