Oct 14, 2005

Happy Friday

It's the last weekend before surgery. And i've noticed i'm SUPER cranky & short with everyone.
Even though i don't feel anxious, apparently i am. Wigged out a little last night, crying, etc.

I just want it over with, but i don't want to do it, either.

Waaaah.

On to more depressing subjects...if you're in the LA area, you've probably heard about the USC student who allegedly gave birth, then left the baby in the dumpster to die. This isn't helping my mood at all.

I believe in God. I truly believe there's a Higher Plan for everyone's life, and that some day, when we go to Heaven, it will all become clear.

However...

i fail to see the Big Picture right now. How can it be that i am not allowed to have a baby, when this child would have a good & loving home, and this chick can leave her baby to die.

I just don't get it. I'm angry. Angry & hurt. I just don't get it.

And probably never will.

Have a great weekend everyone....make a difference in someone's life today!

1 comment:

doodlebugmom said...

Hey Valerie

Best Wishes for your surgery coming up. Cranky is understandable, this sounds like a very stressful time for you.

What sad news about that baby. No one can understand such a terrible thing.

Hang in there!
Linda :o)